I was sitting in the bathroom fighting back tears thinking, “What the hell have I gotten myself into?”. I had pulled out my coursework from my A&P class in 2013 in hopes that it would all come back to me and my Human Biology class would be as seamless as school was to me previously but as I stared at the pages I realized that I was a very different person at that point in my life and that my mind just doesn’t seem capable of that right now. The first time I went back to school, my daughter was 3 and my son was 6 weeks. There was a fire under my ass like no other. There was no failing. I sent a message to my group chat, “I feel like I was a lot smarter back then and I can’t do this.”. Knowing I probably wouldn’t get a sincere response, if any at all, I went back to the pages of course work and at the very back. The very first assignment I had, I found a glimmer of something. I’m not sure what yet but I know I found it for a reason. It reads;
29 Sep 13
What is my personal mission?
To set an example for my my kids as well as contribute to household income.
Character- Ambition and optimism are characteristics I admire most because being able to to see and set goals is a great foundation.
Contributions and achievements- I want to be able to tell my children that anything is possible and that I am doing something I truly love.
My mission is to set a good example for my children. I strongly believe that the foundation for my mission it to remain optimistic in setting goals. I want to be able to tell my children that anything is possible and that I am in a profession which I truly love. Just getting to this point required resilience on my part and I’m sure that will not change anytime soon.
I vaguely remember our instructor, Ms. Jennifer Farley, giving us direction for this assignment. We only had a few minutes but it’s funny now to think that it still holds true and still holds so much importance. I said, I want to tell my children that anything is possible but I really want to show them. Now, five-thousand miles and two kids later I’m glad I found that paper because I’ll need more of that resilience I talked about than ever before.